all the good stuff is friends only. add me and I might add you back. that's all. :]

i don't. :)

Crap. Pressed wrong button. Anyway's it's time for work. Peace and love.

I just got out the shower. Feel so fresh and so clean. outcast is playing, aqeumini. now it's biggie, big poppa. jr has a great playlist.
The living room is clean thanks to me. Pissed off monie in the process cause her stuff was fucking everywhere. Oh well. The house is clean. finally. Lol, so is my room.
Had to clean cause i came up on more furniture. were making kabob's tonight. Sweet, haven't done kabob's since chula vista. Those were good times.
bob just came on, could you be loved.
dang, didn't see that one coming. Was gonna save this part for the end of this post but its ok.
I don't know if you'll wait. Or if you even want me anymore. I know what makes sense to me...myself....I
I won't tell you what that is because you're not talking to me. maybe one day you'll see me and come talk to me. I'll tell you then or not at all.
I feel like i've already put so much of myself out there and it seems like you just don't care. I don't know what to...

I just had dinner. I'm sleepy now. habe work tmrw. and yeah....this <3 still misses you.

Man, I should have brought some breakfast cause I'm hungry. Totally forgot to grab an apple and a banana. Crap.

I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. I did though. I waited til the last possible minute. then I rushed around the house.

Last night we made taco salad. It was amazing. Jr cooked the hamburger and beans. Simone grated the cheese. Nicole sliced tomatoes and tiff cut the lettuce. Somehow I managed to just dance around the living room. lol.

we're strange. Monie was watching some movie. She had the subtitles on cause jr and me were blasting the music as loud as it would go while he was cooking. I was just dancing. It reminded me of hapkido. The movements I mean. Hapkido is all about circular hand movements.

it's cool when its just us kids doin our thing. I love my dad but I like it better when he's not there. cause then he tries to dad everyone. He called me last night while we were at the grocery store. He made me talk to two russian chicks. he was all, I'm hooking you mike. Haha, He was pretty faded. The chicks were funny. One was wasted and the other was just ummmm....idk normal? Anyway my dad's in vegas to pick up his vacation check. He's coming back next week.

I hardly write before work anymore. I should though. I mostly listen to music on youtube cause palm treo's are gay like that...but I love my phone. It's awesome. It does everything I need it to do.

Oh yeah me and nicole think we saw a ufo yesterday. I was about to take a shower after work and she's like 'mikey, come here look at the ufo.'

I did. It was small and shiny. It moved really slow like. There was no else around to say hey look, wtf is that.

anyway I'm on the shuttle to the jobsite. We don't have onsite parking. Weak sauce.

Oh yeah one more thing. <3

I'm at work now. Bye ppl.

So I think the weekend has finally caught up with me. I'm so fucking tired. Yesterday was killer. The guys gave me shit cause I'm still wearing black nail polish. I don't have nail polish remover and I don't feel like buying any. It'll come off eventually.
.im on my way to work and all I wanna do is close my eyes. More shut eye. Sleep. I got way more than I usaually do last night. Well I seem to have lost motivation for this post. Take care ppl.

fuck yeah, glenn was late and brought breakfast jacks.

just went all the way to encinitas for my check. It wasn't there yet. It's still two hours away. :(

fudge. I arranged to be late for school and I woke up hella f-ing early to make it out here.

Oh well my general foreman billy said he'll drop it off at school today. haha, fucking pimp shit.

I can't wait. I'm 7th period now and I still haven't seen what a full check looks like. This one's gonna have OT on it. :)

good cause I need to pay rent. Dues for the hall. Pay someone back $70. I'm pretty sure those are the needs. wants are I gotta buy a pitcher for dan cause he spotted me on tues and I gotta buy a 12 pack for steve cause he's been dropping me off after school all week.

I also want to throw my costume together today. I'm going to be a fallen angel. I have black boots that I bought the week before last. I'm gonna pull out my sexy black leather pants. I need black wings and black nail polish. I haven't decided if I'm going to do black lipstick yet. Imma go to the crypt today for a shirt. I wanna do black fish net but it's going to be fucking cold. I'll decide when I get there. Oh yeah...devil horns and black bondage tape ;)

well I'm almost to school now. I'll post more on break or when I get distracted in class. Later ppl.

So I'm working on my guitar skills again. It's been so long i've lost it all. I'm starting out small. Nirvana-come as you are. That's an easy one.

Usually I just play what ever sounds good to me. I really like strumming the e, B and G stings while sliding fret to fret.

I'm also like the way holding down the D the string on the eight fret, leaving the A string open, holding down the E string on the tenth fret and picking really fast. It sounds really nice to me....like music. It's going to be the beginning of song I haven't finished yet. I don't have lyrics for it yet either.

I usually come up with lyrics when I'm strumming away. It's too hard right now to concentrate on picking while at the same time vocalizing my thoughts. I guess practice makes perfect.

Usually I only play when I'm really sad. not now though. I think I'm done making myself feel that way.

Well, imma get back to working on my skills. Night everyone.

I love when guys are late for class. they bring food for everyone. Today two people were late and one is still missing. So far we got donuts and jumbo jacks. :) sweet, I was hungry.

So I'm pretty dang tired cause I stayed up til midnight. Everybody crashed out early except me. I couldn't sleep for some reason.

I was just asleep during class for the past hour. Mike is by far the chillest teacher i've had so far. hopefully we get him in december.

I think I should pay attention now. Laters.

Ok I'm so over welding in class, for the moment at least. I can't concentrate. I might go back in, in a little bit.
I'm just enjoying the sun again. The other guys arejust standing around holding brooms and stuff. I think they're supposed to be cleaning if they didn't bring their welding stuff or if they just don't feel like welding.
The fighter jets keep flying over cause were so close to miramar. The base is on the other side of the 52.

the sky has cleared up but its still a bit chilly with this slight breeze. I'm getting a bit drowsy so imma get up and move again.

Hope everyones' day is as nice as mine. Peace and frybread.

So I'm on lunch break. i'm outside enjoying the sun with some food. It's triscuits and salmon. Yummy. Wish I has some cheese though. That would be perfect. I would say someone else sharing this with me would be even better but tiffany won't come trade me two pb and j's for some string cheese. :( haha, jk. She's rolling on a donut and doesn't want to drive over.
Hahahahahahhaha. I don't know why that sounds so funny in my head. Maybe cause I imagined her inside the donut while it was rolling. Kinda like a monster truck tire. :) I know I'm retarded.
so today I woke up feeling great. Then the day progressed a lil bit more and I realized something that put my spirits down because that was not my intention. I'm feeling ok again now. I was texting tiff and she made me laugh. My homie was at the hall this morning signing in and kicked some down. (fucking alpine is lagging) I got all zoned in to my assignments and listening to music on youtube. that and the guys in class are hella funny. now its now.
in hindsight I should have known better. I don't know what you thought when you read that but I'm sry I took you there.
some how you always end up in my writing. Some times days later i'll be reviewing it and be like holy crap, I know why I wrote that. And then I have to change it because those are private moments for me. I don't want to share that with anyone.
sometimes I don't even realize it's there until it's too late. last night was my bad. I took it down...

lunch is over. Were going into the welding shop now. I'll write more later.

Love,
Me. <-----(stole this from shi buddy :))

just woke and lol, I should really not try to write poetry when I'm tired. Oh well. I'll write something better next time. :)

So I just went to the window to get change for the soda machine and stuckey, our business agent was all 'you're michael?' with that look i've on his face i've seen before.

I was thinking 'oh fuck, what did I do now.' running through all the possibilities in my head. turns out it's a good thing.

he didn't tell me exactly what they said but he told me that bragg crane company people really like me up in encinitas and that they're sad I'm in school.

That put a smile on my face and practically made my day. i'm still feeling good about it.

Bragg called out for another apprentice yesterday because I'm not there. I know who took the call and i've worked with him. I'm not worried. Hopefully he learns some tricks because he's mostly a rod hand.

Well I'm in class with 6 other people and everyone else is outside picking up trash and cleaning the patio. Lol, suckers.

I was all kinds of tired this morning. Couldn't sleep well last night for some unknown reason. I kept waking up and having trouble falling back asleep. It was the worst.

In other news school is kinda boring. The guys are cool but so far no one has started the covert excurisions at lunch time. They think the guys go to cheetahs. Cheetahs is boring and they have cover charge with no pool. Blah and more blah. I doubt i'll got this week due to lack of funds.

so i've been smoking cigs for about three or four weeks. Actually I know exactly when I started and why. Imma stop again. Maybe i'll stop boozing too.

It's not like it's getting out of control or anything but maybe I should give my organs a rest. Pot sounds good though. Maybe i'll just smoke weed for a while and become introverted.

Then I can write or draw or fucking do something besides fucking off with my family and friends. All I know is its fun. I've been handling my fun pretty well. And work.

My brother though has been getting black out drunk lately. Too drunk. Messy drunk. Like almost to the point where fights could happen. Like the time he threw a can of monster at the hour long line trying to get into true north. That was fucking hilarious though cause it hit the corner of the curb and exploded all over those north park hipsters. I thought someone was gonna run across the street and I was gonna have to drop him. No one did though. I guess we were scary looking or something. lolz.

Or the time he wanted to kick over that motorcycle. Idk about that one. that was kinda crazy. it's ok though. I only have two brothers. My brother has hurt me before but I can forgive him for that. I got his back. he gots mine. My brother and I can handle anyone. Drinking or not. better if were not though. :)

ummmm....yeah, it's almost lunch time. I have other stuff to post about but i'll get around to that later. Prolly friends only. Not sure yet.

So no work this week. Got school instead. I fucked off school last week to take a job so my usual trouble makers aren't here. That's probably a good thing. Need to save money. I'm also on budget staus til friday. Spent way too much money lately. I caught up on sleep on sunday. Woke up n wrote a little. It....

edit-Holy shit. I figured out edit for the livejournal mobile app. Haha, I feel silly.

I'm done with the first assignment. everybody is talking. Topics are starting up a business. th e instructor kids. Getting into office. just random stuff.

this class is more quiet than my usual classmates. There's no crab tree and chicken little. Those fuckers just talk. Mario's not here either. He's cool. Matt tyler's here. And the other norrth county matt....

Ok were doing stuff again. Later.

So no work this week. Got school instead. I fucked off school last week to take a job so my usual trouble makers aren't here. That's probably a good thing. Need to save money. I'm also on budget staus til friday. Spent way too much money lately. I caught up on sleep on sunday. Woke up n wrote a little. it

Fuck. Imma starve today. I forgot my lunch. I had it all packed and everything. now I just have four cookies. :( I didn't even bring smokes. Shit. My stomach is not going to like me today. time to stop bitching and work. :)

So I'm going to the creation station. You get to make art with donated supplies. that's the plan for today. Create something.

Haha, oops. Pressed the wrong button. Just erased everything.

the world is not flat. Checks and balances. I thought about every different language and how every way of life sounds exactly the same. Space. People. Communication. Cultural Identity. Man.

Somehow that makes sense. Just like purple paint makes sense. If only in colors. Purple. Pink...Maroon. That's the color, on an airplane looking for the moon. I howled. I danced. I flew into elation. I remembered. I forgot. It's intense.

I didn't see the moon last night. It might have been black for all I know. There was light. It exploded with sound. Deep blue bass. White hot heat. Organic purple sound waves. Pretty in Pink music.

I don't know why but all my words should rhyme. Just right now though. Later'll be diferent. not quite different enough though.

Tumbleweeds, Fireiy red ketchup kicking it foward. Jimminy Crickitt travels along too. Conscious advice is never followed.

There was a smile. And a cat. Like alice in wonderland. It was drawn with black ink on grid paper. Lines intersected. Pictures formed, roller ball and smooth ebony fluid. Images. Time, space. The universe.

So i've decided I don't like helicopter nosies when I'm flying. I like strobe lights. And dancing people. Paint, make up and masks. Black light people. The night and everyone in it.

All at once, because that's what happens. I'm not philosipher. I not not poet. I just like words. Thoughts. Feelings. Experiences.

I had so many epiphanies last night. Most of the are gone. I realized money sucks by it self. It buys things. Condo people. City people. Country people. Just about everyone. Myself included.

Not everyone but most. Some people don't need it. Enlightened people like monks and preists. Actually not preists. The Dali Lama. What am I talking about? I don't know. Stuff.

I need Chess. Or Mandala. Maybe even a little no limit be fun. I'm not bored. I'm content with right now. Here.

So I just smoked pot. kI think I'm living dangerously tonite.